Friday, 28 October 2016

Feeling the Pain of Others

Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn.

-Romans 12:15 (NIV)

I think I am,
or I indeed
(and many have said that)
I am an emotional person
Being an E(S/N)FP person
I readily and easily catches emotions from my surroundings and people
(yes like a cold, and my immunity is super weak)
Hence
When I see miserable things happening on other people
I feel their pain
and will feel down for sometime until I leave the scene or till I attend to other things

Hospital wards are typical examples of places where I feel emotionally drained after going
Especially when I go into those wards where the seniors are hosted
I will feel the pain when I see the IV drip tubes attached to their hands
I will feel their feebleness when they try to move or talk
I will feel the loneliness when I see their families are not there to accompany them
I will feel their pessimism and negative outlooks when I see them sigh
I will feel their sense of guilt and self-worthless for being bedridden when they need others to attend to their basic needs
and
I will feel the fragility and transience of life

Today what happened was I went to visit a fellow church mate's father with other fellow cell group aunties at NUH
(which is just located outside my school)
It's a type C ward,
so you share the space with 7 other patients
and the moment I am in the space
I feel slightly under a pressure
because you see 8 people who are sick
(though not all are in obvious pain, but still)
And usually seniors will be a bit more negative and pessimistic when they had to be sent to hospital
(the old people's mindset that once you are in hospital, it's a major issue and you're doomed)
and I get them like a flu

It's always hard for me to think of being in the position of a healthcare professional
because
if I were to be in this environment
I think every day my energy will just be drained so fast
Hence
when I meet very nice doctors, nurses
I respect them a lot
because
Hell no
every day they are going through such tremendous loads of negativity
but yet they persist

I think I'm glad that I didn't adhere to my mum's wish that I should become a doctor
So that I can keep myself sane
And so that I can offer help and support from other means

Thursday, 18 August 2016

原来,我还是没能免疫 Emotionally not Immuned

向来承认(或者自认)是一个很(或者非常)感性的人
向来尝试理性冷静看待一切
但是向来没能成功。。。

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今天是个很忙的一天
白天忙完了其实应该回来倒头就开始手头上的工作
(readings, FYP planning, 复习等等)
因为写博文很耗时间
但是今天下午在从医院回学校的路上
在脑海里反复跟自己说
“今天一定要写下来,要不然以后可能会把这份情感遗忘的”

隔了一年
继去年发现肿瘤有复发的迹象
已经迈入第四期
上星期,二姨又再进行了一次CT扫描
今天是见医生听报告的预约
昨晚她还老神在在的在电话里说:
“哎呀忙就别来了”
只好用硬一点的语气回说我会陪她去
因为前几天听她说扫描有发现腿有血栓(thrombosis)
感觉今天医生应该会开药
看了医生后要去拿药
这种程序多多的看诊日还是陪着她比较好

下午两点多从实验室里出来
赶去医院的路上害怕会错过三点的预约跟主治医生会面的机会
还好去到的时候二姨也是刚到挂了号
结果还是等了一个小时

轮到我们了
进去诊室是照样的跟医生打招呼
坐下
医生问二姨有没有觉得哪里不舒服之类的流程问题还有检查腹部
二姨都说没有
接下来的报告
因为血栓所以要配给她抗凝的药
二姨一听
下意识反应
“又要加药?我不要啦”
医生和我就跟她解释有血栓如果不服药血栓流到肺部的危险
结果她没办法反对
虽然看起来还是不太情愿
还是默默的不争辩了

完了血栓的问题
正题来了
因为这次有CT扫描的报告
医生也就跳过不说癌抗原CEA的指数
直接告诉我们扫描结果显示有扩散的迹象
说是除了有新增的一颗在原发区附近比较大的肿瘤
也扩散到肺部去了
因为医生的华语讲得不太流利
为了更详细的了解二姨的病情
只好用英文还有自己有限的医药知识跟医生沟通
当时没有感到任何害怕还是恐惧感
觉得自己还是蛮冷静理性的
但是当我看着医生用鼠标滑上滑下显示CT图的各切面
到医生指着肺部上显现斑斑的白点
我突然发觉
It's real
一年前的担忧还有当时的不安再次席卷而来
但是还是没有动摇当时的心情(仍然感觉自己很平静)
虽然是坏消息
但是所幸医生说这一年下来癌细胞的进展不很快
而且二姨还没出现任何症状说明癌细胞对她有什么影响
所以仍然(像去年那样)建议保守化疗控制扩散
(英文)问医生如果不做任何干预还剩下多少时间
医生说乐观的看,按照这样的速度应该还有一年,但是也很难说
医生这样说,我也很难说

接下来的反应可想而知
一个年过七十的老人
二姨仍然拒绝化疗
今天她拒绝的神情比之前要倔很多
也更颓丧
医生(又)只好给我们四个月后复诊的预约来看血栓的情况
并无奈的说(其实也看得出有些厌倦)
(英文)“我接下来不会安排任何针对她癌症的扫描或验血,因为既然她拒绝接受治疗,这些检查也就只会告诉我们癌细胞有所进展和扩散,并不会有建设性的帮助,而且只会浪费钱和时间。”
我也只能同意这个说法
好在这也就只是我和医生之间用英语的对话
二姨没能听懂

结束了会诊
拿了药
出去搭医院的客车去外面地铁站的路上
因为知道她非常不愿意无缘无故的又被迫多吃一种药
我又再告诉她血栓如果不清除会跑到肺里去
堵住的话会没办法呼吸
她说:“不能呼吸就去了咯”
我只好挖苦她说:“你以为要去就去得成的吗?不要等下去不成会很痛苦,还是吃药啦。”
说这句的时候我还是很理智的
但是她接下来冷不丁一句:“现在唯一还没做的事情就是看到你毕业”
句末
我眼睛瞬时酸酸的
眼眶马上泛滥
别过头看窗外偷偷擦眼泪
回过头来
她的眼眶也是亮亮的有未满还没流出来的泪水
接下来到车站为止的距离我们再也没说过话
深怕说了什么会让当时的情绪再激化

车到站了
下了医院客车要过到对面的地铁站
她捉住了我的手臂
走过了天桥
我要陪着她等巴士
她还是如既往地要“赶我走”
“赶时间的话不用陪我等车”
我又只好当耳边风的等到63号到了
看到她上车坐稳了以后再转身走进地铁站

结果
回学校的路上
想了一路
想了种种可能发生的情景
因为不想情绪决堤所以故意不往很坏的方向去想

经历两次从医生那里听取坏消息
我发现
二姨在我心目中的地位比自己想象的重要
虽然两年来住校以后
忙起来的时候不常回家
回不了家还是补偿性的,很不好意思的打电话回去跟她汇报
有的时候还是会不免担心这个老东西自己在家还ok不ok
和她偶尔一起出门让人以为是她孙女、女儿还是媳妇(天呐我气场就那么老像人妇吗?)
每每回家都会尽量住好吃的菜犒赏我这个长期吃学校食堂的可怜孩子
一切的一切
平时是多么的理所当然
但是每每自己一个人一样样细数的时候是多么的让我动容

现在路越来越难走了
尤其是在这种变数极大的事
她又不愿按我们的理出牌
我真的觉得好无助
但是路还是要继续走,日子还要继续过
只是但愿她还愿意让我牵着她走下去

牵手一周年纪念

Monday, 1 August 2016

回家 | 返新

这篇
sooooo loooonnggg overdue....

原本年头开了draft (定了题目的日期是2016年1月4日)
却到现在才开始写并完成
原本是要写去年12月末回家
因为开智慧牙手术的关系顺便留在家休养一个月
好不容易重新适应在相对ulu的家乡生活后又再返回比较都市化的新加坡的心情
还有按常例都去各个亲戚长辈家串门探访后的感慨
现在意境不一样了(毕竟这次只是待不到一星期)
但是又要匆忙离开家的感觉应该大致还是一样的吧
先试试按照之前的记忆写写看吧

12月回家的时候是很开心的
因为已经很久都没有机会那么尽情的在家呆上3星期
(欸?好吧去年5月也是因为拔牙所以呆在家3个星期)
而且预料接下来的日子
大三下学期还有大四赶毕业论文外加各种活动
再后面的毕业后就业
就真的没有机会在家当孩子王耍赖了
虽然开刀取智慧牙不是什么好事
但是还是很兴奋的
(想象回当时坐上巴士回家的那天感觉拔牙也是件好事哈哈哈)
然后当时因为在医院预约到的日期比想象中的迟一些
还跟妈妈一起去了吉隆坡找契妈玩两天
第一次去了KLCC的Kinokuniya
差点溺在里面不舍得出来
然后还另外在大众书局买了两本不太贵的书
最遗憾的是没有跟妈妈买票再去华丽丽的Dewan Phil再看一场演奏会
(那个时候记得是有Holst的Planets)
回来怡保后就是上刑场拔牙
但是好在这次遇到的医生技术不错
然后在妈妈的精心照顾之下好得很快
脸消肿之后就开始去探望长辈和父母的那些老朋友
还回了小学母校转一圈

三个星期到了尾声
父母送行
尔后在长途巴士上返回新加坡的时候
回想那些在家的日子
真的不胜唏嘘
然后内心也浮起一些挣扎与矛盾
怎么会
每当回家乡的时候
都与自己记忆里的越来越不一样
真的有那种熟悉又陌生的感觉
觉得可能心里面已经产生了一种逃避的心理
每每回家看到父母和长辈们一个个慢慢老去
(甚至一些我认识的,父母的那些比较年长的朋友已经先被死神招去)
每每妈妈在skype上面说我回家就会煮这个那个给我吃
但是到我真的回家的时候也常常因为(人老了)累而没去煮
每每回家看到以往熟悉的小吃店或者茶餐厅换了样貌易了主
心里都会觉得不是滋味

反观
在新加坡待了两年多
生活的中心、朋友、各种对梦想和理想的追逐
没有什么别的牵绊
(除了银行贷款和MOE bond)
它反而变成了一个让我觉得很舒服的一个地方
(虽然汇率还是很不近人情)

慢慢的
从大二下学年开始
回家
仿佛变得好沉重,重的已经变成了我的心理负担
毕竟好像都变得没有像记忆中的那么美好
回家
仿佛一个倒数计时
数着我何年何月是我见某某人的最后第几次

我现在开始了解
可能
有些人不愿回家
不是不想家
只是不愿面对每每回去看到的物是人非

所以啊
想到这里都会很怕
怕少回去一次就错失了什么
心里面再怎么矛盾
每次都会乖乖的订车票回家
想着在它完全变成自己不认得的模样之前
多看几眼

无论如何
我都会提醒自己
无论家乡以后会变成什么样子
它永远是我的根
是我心里面的避风港

Sunday, 10 April 2016

转眼,22岁~ In a blink of an eye, I'm now 22...

好吧
这次生日的前后都超忙的
到现在才稍稍有空写感言
星期日和星期一那时候朋友问我打算怎么庆祝生日当天
我都苦笑
“赶两个presentation和一个report submission(还有零零碎碎的事要处理)算庆祝吗哈哈”

不过~
像舒宁说的“衰到尽头 就会有好事的啦
果然~
就在我赶功课赶得一头烟的时候
惊喜接踵而来。。。

生日前一天。。。
每次被我笑只有三岁的心智兴致勃勃的问我
“你明天要不要和我吃晚饭啊?我请你吧
还是你喜欢大家买蛋糕一起庆祝,你喜欢哪个?”
我好笑的问
"你这样问我明天的安排就是没有惊喜的意思啦?
我很贪心的哈哈两个都要"
结果她劈头就来:“这么大个人了难道还要圣诞老人咩
😒不早点告诉你你又出去了怎么办”
可是好笑的又要我装不知道不然他们很难办事

生日上了早课,和素仪吃了个正常不过的午饭
就分道扬镳回去宿舍该干嘛干嘛
一整天就是很混沌的过了

晚上,在我们RA的Apartment
好在Kowshik还有良心,在客厅做功课的时候还跟我说了"Happy Birthday"
但是在一旁的建俊就很讶异的来一个
“蛤today is your birthday??? Sorry I don't know...”
我当时根本就心寒
因为这个年代就算你本身不记得或不知道Facebook也会提醒你的
但是他就百般解释说因为没看Facebook旁边的reminder
好吧我也接受这个合理的说辞
Gladys也来了,问了问我 How's your day?
寒暄两下也走了,去赶她的功课

说着说着
AMCISA的小伙伴们敲了敲apartment的门
先是孝眩然后看到后面的几个
天呐竟然带了一个蛋糕给我!!!
感动涕零 Q_Q
为我大唱生日歌再寒暄几句
没想到我在AMCISA里面潜水那么久了
还有人惦记着我
感情大家在百忙之中来看我
尤其孝眩和松钰大老远从马路另一边的KFH和Raffles过来
所以也不多留你们了
其他的朱尼尔们姐真的太爱你们了
颖聪:哈哈听说是你问孝眩姐姐要不要plan的,有心了谢谢!你太值得疼了!记得记得要继续当你的吉他王子,继续当AMCISA的门面担当 (要不然以后真的吸引不到junior来FOC了。。。泪奔)
孝眩:客气话心窝子的话什么的我在这里省略了哈反正我们这么熟,总之给你多多爱就是了哈哈
松钰:好啦别再女神前女神后的叫我了,担当不起啊~
亮煜:好啦你也是很可爱的啦,虽然有时候跟我的frequency不太一样,还是有一些话题能一起切磋
敦诚:谢谢你每次在的时候都有笑果不会冷场 (救亮煜的场哈哈)
文亮:乖巧温顺的你每次在的时候都让我瞬间觉得老了一点点,但是每次你给人的感觉蛮正面的 ^_^
淑婷:FOC过后就没什么跟你相处了,因为你也是文静型的,也不是时常会见到你,找机会了解了解你吧
舒毅:从2013年科学营认识,到去年的亚洲科学营,真的有那种患难见真情的感觉,虽然我比你大一点,但是感觉上你比我牢靠多了哈哈,跟我一样个性很跳tone的人真的不多,谢谢你这次也列席在为我庆生的队伍里,谢谢!


AMCISA的孩纸们回了后
再来就是老大江伟神态自若的
回到apartment
盯着我手上的蛋糕
“哦有人给你庆祝啦?”
然后他看着就很馋的样子
“可以来一点吗?”
我问他:“确定吗?不是要减肥?”
哪知道他还当真小气了(都不懂是不是装的)
“不给就不给喽,反正也不是很稀罕”
心智大概在这时拿着一个塑料袋进来
我觉得应该是给我的吧?
可是追着她硬就说不是
我就万念俱灰
说好的庆生呢~~~呜~~~
大家真的都忘了吗呜~~~
(这时也没发现Kowshik不见了)

就在这时Kowshik和Gladys就捧着蛋糕入场!
好吧
虽然心智已经算是预先让我知道我庆生的安排
但是我也是太健忘了
根本这个就是不太surprise也surprise到我了哈哈
心智,我现在就告诉你
就算给我预先知道我后来也是会照样被surprise到的哈哈
(所以现在大家知道我有多好骗了吗?)
(I'm really surprised with my own gullibility...)
So, I really want to extend my heartfelt gratitude to 5 of you
After all this while with y'all,
regardless as colleagues or friends
Thanks for accommodating my little weirdness, emotions, workloads, opinions which differ from yours
Thank you for being part of my life in the first half of 2016
Thanks for the dedications y'all wrote for me ^^
心智:谢谢你为我生日惊喜筹备和策划,也谢谢你画的那些插图(都很可爱,重点是画到姐很美哈哈哈哈哈!)和那本小说,你费心了~ 真的很感谢你,在这几个月里和你一起相处的时间真的很愉快~你也是傻傻没什么心机的小孩纸,要幸福哟~
江伟老大:不得不说,这张全家福真的怎么看怎么像发福版的张国立?好吧你要当时褒奖开心就好呵呵!非常谢谢你在我们组里面担当大家长、大哥的角色、还要谢谢你帮我印notes哈哈哈,真的觉得你是一个很会关照下属的老板,为人也很搞笑亲和,祝事业顺利,PhD早日到手!(以后有好处要带上我们哟哈哈)话说我们以后真的不能聊社会和政治了,一开头就一两小时没完没了啊~~~囧~~~
建俊: WALAO EH never know you can act one de hor...next time I need to think twice when I hear you say anything....*smirk* oh wells, I have been contemplating whether I should write yours in English or Chinese, but wells, I decided not to torture you with all the characters which you already seen as strangers HAHA or else it defeats the purpose of this dedicated message. Thanks for sharing my likes, accommodating to my preference whenever I play the music on my laptop in the living room when we occupy the living room...And for those helps offered during my duty time when I couldn't attend to those residents...And for "Fluffy" HAHA!!! Nice to have a caring person in the team who is almost always ready to back all of us up. Hope you will have a good time when you move on to serve in PGP :) and all the best in every other thing in your life, God bless!!!
Gladys: same, had contemplated in which language to write to you, but since I wrote JJ's in English I should not be double-standard HAHA First of all, I like the way how you treat people, in a caring but not overwhelming way, and in quite a few aspects, like regarding how we should see social problems and how we should be altruistic to help others, I cannot agree more. And thanks for the tips when I appealed for my module, which sort of saved my life or else I would risk doing another module that I will possibly not do well next semester...And all the cute little things like rabbit and lizards (oops)
Love you :)
Kowshik: Yo!!! Wells, sorry that you have to scroll soooo far down until the part that you can understand HAHA...> < But anyways! I am more than happy to have a much more matured younger brother in the team, giving feedbacks and opinions which I think are quite useful. Although there are some things that we could not agree on (and sometimes until the brink that I feel like wanna start arguing), do know that I appreciate our discussions a lot, cuz they serve as a window for me to learn others' views. I am thankful to have you in the team, cheers! Btw, I apologize for my inconsideration for playing my music out loud on my laptop (just can't help to share the music I like with other ppl), but anyways, just remind me if I forget...@_@
 


在这两班人马为我庆祝之前
嘉睿就先放了一个炮弹说他和家威买了birthday cupcake给我
天呐神龙不见首尾的KarL买cupcake给我
顿时受宠若惊
但是在两班人马的高卡路里轰炸过后
只好隔天才劳烦KarL他老人家拿出来给我呵呵
许久不见还是一样好聊一样好笑
唯一不好笑的就是你的thesis要写完要解脱了我却还有5个finals和几个report要写
(话说还好星期二有cupcake当下午茶要不然一整天的课下来脑力都榨干了,外加晚上有两个presentation meeting准备星期三的两个major presentation...)
一打开盒子看到这个cupcake
真的很惊叹家威的超有心思的taste
选了一个超有庆生意义的cupcake装饰
真不枉当你们是朋友哈哈!!!

总而言之
今年的生日就在一片被朋友们宠溺的节奏下过了~
真的觉得自己超幸福的~
但愿这一年顺顺利利的过到下一年生日吧~
要冲Finals了(泪奔

Wednesday, 20 January 2016

Miniatures 2016: 梦里寻踪 Our Dreams They Never Meet (But they finally did!!! In the concert...)

About my thoughts on this song,
at first I can only understand the first part where melodies are quite clear cut
Start getting lost when we reach the middle
where violins and viola started racing among each others
It was like so many parts that didn't make sense
especially at first we didn't manage to get a viola player to play the part
so many conterpoints, so many confusions...
(like what another friend said, "I don't like to try out contemporary pieces")
Until I read the notes from the composer...
and when the complete ensemble was formed
Then I realize that, no one's dream on earth will ever meet with another...
The lyrical melodies from the first flute opens up the dreamlike context
Followed by an answer (or query) from the second flute....
Perhaps the chase between the strings is the depiction of the search on the sea...
After the chase, it seems like we can catch each other
thus the slow down afterwards
However the uncertainty comes back shortly after the settling down
Until the song ends with an epiphany and realization...

Comments about the inspiration of the piece from the composer Phang Kok Jun:
I was imagining the dreams of two [people], intertwining but never really meeting, thus the constant counterpoint between the two soloists almost throughout the piece.

曲序 (by Phang Kok Jun)
You said you had a dream last night
in a land of fantasies where
words were moving melodies -
the images - still vividly alive
I too had a dream no less
a captain in a vessel of hope -
I sailed the seas in search of thee
from one dream to the next
but in a flash all was gone
how it ended I'd never know
in vain I tried to venture on and
then I slowly understood -

dreams are realities we cannot reach
pity - our dreams they never meet

-------------------------------------------------

终于
像梦一场的Miniatures 2016告一段落了
昨晚演出结束后
明明心力都透支了
还是辗转难眠
心里松下一口气的同时
脑海里还在播映着
在台上的兴奋紧张的情绪
好友来捧场感受到的满满的爱
合奏这首曲的队友们整个月下来的辛劳
看着那些照片
感觉还历历在目

回想11月下旬
柳依在V1的WhatsApp群里面问谁有兴趣参与演出这首歌的时候
毫不犹豫就发了举手的emoticon
因为看题目和组合就很有感觉
(尤其因为对Flute的偏爱所以很期待这种合作)
加上之前两年Miniatures我都是钢伴
第一次在small ensemble里面拉小提琴
(相当于告别了合作两年后毕业的MyungSik的时代...)
其实不用猜都知道我是有点压力的
毕竟自己的ensemble playing不是说十分好
技巧底子也不很稳
原本是想说V1就让给别人啦
看了谱就OMG V2感觉比较难就推给很随和的展锋
(对不起啦补回cookie给你
然后这次挑大梁的二位其彰和将俊更是让我不能松懈
(好吧其实我真的太slack了

开始练的时候好一些部分我都抓不稳节拍
(尤其是那个zam zam zam的部分,你们懂的
还有一些部分我会不自觉的加快
换来的是将军的
“悦倩~~~!!!”
然后我的一些高音部分
更可怕的是开头我的旋律是跟Flute 1 同步不可以走音
过后中间一个桥段有一小句我的独奏不可以错
因为muscle memory不太好 (缺乏练习
刚开始直到表演前都有大大小小的走音
换来其彰 (加上将俊和一干人等)的
"Please~~~"
让自己觉得好“派写”
不管怎样
昨晚在台上的那一刻
华丽丽的solo没出错HAHAHA (成就感^.^

然后这次折腾了很久
从十二月到前两个星期为止
中提琴和大提琴一直空缺
直到JoPhy愿意而且得空帮忙
情侣档拉那一段的时候的互动真的很不一样(笑
Our cutes cellist Phyllis ^^ <3
YST来了救星Mervin
一切才尘埃落定
而且不说音乐系学生强大
人也很好
给了很多有建设性的意见
外加当我们的节拍担当HAHAHA
(虽说每个人都有负责把关节拍的时候
但是大家还是把这个担子统统推到他身上哈哈哈
但好在他也任劳任怨啦~)
让我们有办法在两星期之内把支离破碎的组合拼凑起来
(好吧这个有点夸张但是没有中提琴和大提琴那部分的声音感觉整首歌都不make sense)

准备的过程中
大家都出了不少怨言
(订不到practice room,没有中提大提,下课直接练没吃晚餐肚子饿等等等等...)
但是也少不了开心的时候,爆了不少笑料
(大家节拍终于一致的时刻!还有奶爸将俊一直要拍照录音录影)
总是想尽办法要拍合照的将俊(左)
当然
表演也不能只有我们而没有观众
感谢各位好友抽空来捧场支持我们^.^
爱你们! <3
Seeing myself from Gladys' angle HAHA Why I looked so serious?
Ah that's my default face when I play my violin >.<
Thanks to my RVR RA family members Gladys and JJ for coming despite having a hard day buying stuffs before my concert for the Meet&Greet on the next day, and WOW even bought me a big sunflower, which really cheers me up :)

是啦是啦最有爱是你啦 <3 友谊万岁喵呜 ^^
谢谢雨婷的Ferrero, 谢谢Alvin我一JIO就答应来捧场!

And yeah from Salai. The rose is very beautiful, the color is warm and bright, I like it very much. Thanks for making the effort to come and support me, I really appreciate it, glad that your first concert experience is with us haha! Good that you enjoyed the song we played :)

And my forever friend Siyanyanyan who lends the most support to me, thematically bought this Miniatures chocolates, and your thoughtful notes in the card
(yeah btw I read it after I got back to my hostel and saw the verse HAHA, should have opened it earlier :O )

Monday, 4 January 2016

悦倩友人账之2015年的新朋友们~~~Yueqian's Book of Friends 2015

hmm...
考完试最近几天都在看素仪推荐的《夏目友人账》
真的很治愈很暖心
看着看着觉得2015年自己好像在友情方面收获蛮多
所以想整理一个新朋友的名单来谢谢各位新朋友和发一些小的感想~~~
可能我所描述的跟你们自己所想的或者跟平时朋友口中/眼中的你们不一样
就当作一个新角度吧!

Reading "Natsume Book of Friends" recently and find this comic very heartwarming
Feeling like posting a write up of my new friends that I got to know in 2015 to preserve our friendships
What I write here may not be similar as what your usual friends think/say of you but
just treat it as another view from a new friend ^_^

谢谢你,出现在我的青春里。(《我的少女时代》,2015)
Thank you for being part of my younger days. (Our Times, 2015)

 鐵磨鐵,磨出刃來,朋友相感也是如此。(箴言 27:17, CUVMPT)
As iron sharpens iron, so a friend sharpens a friend. (Proverbs 27:17, NLT)

we meet, because of music~~~
KarLuis嘉睿
严格上初次见面应该是我们刚进NUSSO的那一年吧?
然后听说你是念Law的时候我还一脸质疑说要你背一条看看
结果你还来真的 (虽然我明显听不懂但你赢了哈哈
(其实纯粹只是因为初次见到Malaysian念这种应该很少international student拿到的科系而讶异而已)
然后你从NUSSO消失一段日子后
回归时跳槽过来V1做我的desk partner才开始比较熟
话说真的,非常感谢你
在玩音乐的路上时常给予我的指点
不只是合作时技巧方面的批评、鼓励与认可
(老实说坐你隔壁压力蛮大的 (◎﹏◎) )
还有我在赏析方面向还懂得不多
你也推荐了很多你觉得不错的作曲家、指挥家和乐手的作品
不只是音乐上,在政治和一些哲学方面的知识
也多得你在我从你的藏书中淘宝的时候从不吝啬任我借阅
觉得跟你做朋友很长知识哈哈 ^^
有时间再切磋吧,还要跟你多多学习呢!
祝最后一学期加油~~~  q(≧▽≦q)

柳依&侯若木
柳依嘛~
虽然严格上去年就认识了,但是也到今年有来往了才开始熟络
第一个学期的时候因为你坐第二排(我永远靠后呵呵) 都没什么交集
今年新一届执委选举后因为是上一任跟接班人的关系开始有公事上的往来
到后来的meal plan邀请、偶尔交换食物、到你的hall串门子
我又通过你认识多一个与你同样随和、如同大神般的新朋友侯若木
真觉得认识你们是我的小幸运之一~
勤奋细心热心,是我对你的印象
学习又不错
再加上你的琴艺比我好上那么多
真的要向你多多学习
啊这学期我搬回RVR了不能再常常在宿舍遇到了~桑心~
(T_T)

Joan Eric Zann Chris
first of all would like to thank Joan for bringing me into another group of music makers
and for my first experience to be in a string quartet for wedding gig
really had a great time working with y'all
and yeah, let's catch up someday (maybe a durian trip to JB this time?)
Joan, I find that you are chatty, outspoken and frank while dealing with people
although sometimes I feel that you are a bit assertive
but those were well-intended
next...thanks Eric for being the big brother among all of us
really appreciate your hospitality when I first joined the group
and Zann, for being a nice manager and sister ^^
both of you make such a cute combination
Chris, OMG so nice to meet another dog lover!
I swear Niko and Loki are so CUTE (ok I bet I'm not the only who say that)
and also your photography! (impressed by your collection and Leica camera HAHA)

ZhanFeng展锋
Hello! My new desk partner @ Miniatures 2016 buddy!
以前也就只是rehearsal偶尔partner没来的时候一起并坐过一两次
这个season一起坐感觉也ok合得来
虽然有时候和我一样blur
但是还是会cover到我一点哈哈!
然后偶尔在Facebook share的那些高级的笑话实在是弄得我每次都LOL

KeeZhang其彰 & JiangJun将俊
hmm...should I use English or Chinese?
aiyah English bah since every time I meet you guys we don't speak in Mandarin HAHA
KeeZhang, hmm...We first met during Tune-In if I'm not wrong
and cuz you are a friend of our ex-principal flautist together in ACSWO
Find that you are friendly and chatty
quite knowledgeable, and another strong wind player in my friends list
Although sometimes you speak cheemology but overall I still manage to catch up *phew*
Glad to have another chance to get to know you (and your skills) more working together for this coming Miniatures other than just playing together in the huge NUSSO
JiangJun hey! haha i find it interesting to think/argue about whether you are "going to be" or "general" handsome
(paiseh forgive my lousy sense of humor haha)
like most friends of mine, you are friendly and easygoing
quite surprised that you self-learnt the concert flute! (give you a cookie for this)
thanks a lot for introducing this very unique work to us
hey next time teach me 笛子 ah!
(ok I should get my own before asking you for lessons HAHA)
See you guys when we next meet up for practice!


my psychology module mates
the "Developers" (with special thanks to Jason, and also Rachel ZhaoEn Melissa Deborah)
Hey peeps!!!
So nice to have y'all as discussion group buddies!!!
It's quite a new experience for me cuz in last few psych modules we always shuffled partners in discussion groups
This is the first time having constant ones
Although I didn't contribute much
but thanks for covering up my part
I've learnt quite something from y'all
Especially Jason, thanks for being the main coordinator for processing all our random ideas
And also for your help recording lectures and your ppt notes when I CMI for class
See y'all around at school!!!
(FYI, if anyone hasn't taken biopsych, I'm taking this semester!)
P/S: If we ever have the chance, consider setting up the kindergarten together? LOL!!!

the "C"ube Clinic partners: Clarence & Clement
Hey guys
OMG I just realized that we didn't have our group photo after the presentation nor when the module ended
Ahh...
Although it was only a short presentation and we only met up once (physically) to discuss about it
It was still pleasant working with y'all
And glad that we got a quite easy topic which we didn't need to go through much hassle
And plus those discussions during tutorial Q&As, the ideas from both of you did mentioned some points that I didn't consider, which helped me to think more like a psychologist in a clinical setting
And yeah, all the best for your journey in psych!


宿舍的新朋友们
明芳
2015年第一学期的日子因为有你而感觉温暖
刚开始搬进PGP我还是挺不适应的
因为之前住惯了RVR
对于这个环境还是蛮陌生
但是还好有你这个热心的邻居兼cluster leader
感觉你对人都很诚恳,果然是当CL的好材料呵呵!
偶尔烦闷的时候到你房间串门子聊聊天真的很舒服
也刚好有些共同话题聊得来
啊啊啊我住一学期就搬走,一定会想念你的!
尤其看到你给我的猫咪更会想 ^ ^
不担心,现在它们俩有伴了!
希望你接下来的学期学习进步哟









Fiona
cluster里有一个malaysian同胞!
耶!很高兴认识你
你给我的印象就是一个斯斯文文的女生
虽然我们来自马来西亚隔海的两边
即使我们不是说特别熟
但是在cluster 遇见打个招呼
感觉还是不错的
希望我只好比较得空参MSL活动的时候能遇见你
然后我们要再认识彼此哦~~~
啊!发觉我们竟然没有合照到~~~ >.<


Miscellaneous(不懂如何归类)
家庆珮茹启豪KarWai
把你们组在一起是因为?
哦~ 都是在Raffles Hall 通过KarLuis认识的
唉~大家都同感吧?
认识这个人果然不是什么好事 (开玩笑 ╮(╯-╰)╭
家庆:之前就在fb上面add了的
但是真正开始说上话却是去年在Raffles Hall一起吃饭
超级羡慕你有舞蹈的功底
话说妹子想继续跳舞都没时间没机会了~
超羡慕你柔软的身段 (像我的硬kok kok 真的百般无奈唉 (T_T)
还有你那出神入化的脸部表情
OMG 我觉得我的脸部表情已经算不错了但是你的根本就另一个level...
私下练功的时候jio我吧,得空就会来练上一份做一下运动
珮茹:hmm...不懂怎么的
竟然在2011年科学营的时候就random add到你做朋友了?
唉真是年轻不懂事的时候干的事情
然后过后也没什么交集
但是跟你在hall一起吃过几次饭
聊过几次天
OMG你也是一个大剌剌的妹子啊~~~
好吧过后有机会再深入认识吧
你year 2 了也应该会很忙的了。。。
启豪:你好!
初次见面的时候感觉也应该是个蛮不错的人
很有礼貌然后还算聊得来
后来才知道原来你和KarL是中学同学
啊跟中学朋友同校还真是蛮令人羡慕的事情呢~
(起码我就没机会 ╮(╯-╰)╭ )
祝职场上一切顺利吧 ^ ^
KarWai:一直都不懂你的华文名
惭愧~
初次见面的时候是?
应该就是去试玩古琴的时候你陪KarL去而见面的吧?
过后再Raffles Hall的时候偶尔也是会看到你
然后也试过很绅士的走一段路的时候帮我拎我的琴
老实说蛮enjoy你的tweets的哈哈哈都很到点很搞笑
另外呢~
很高兴认识多一个怡保来的同乡
有刚好都在家乡的时候一起出来喝个茶吧! ^^

New Cell Group!
Stephanie YanLing YiHui
I really thank God for bringing us together
So we can know each other and support one another in our Christian walk
Thanks Steph for being so caring
and I found that we can make good friends
for you are my senior and I can learn from you in many aspects in life
and you are so patient in listening
especially when you officially take over me in Area Vision
you have showed me much concern and I really feel warm and welcomed :)
YanLing, glad to know another bubbly girl
although you are not very much older than me
but you are always like a 大姐大 haha
Thanks for leading the group before the regrouping
You have been, and will continue to be a good leader ^^
YiHui, although you are not the net leader
But I also see you as a gentle friend
and those friendly chats sometimes when I'm feeling nowhere in the big group
Appreciate that very much
Hope that we can know each other more in future meet ups :)

番外篇:旧友翻新   Friendship Revisited
佛英
相识2年后终于有幸住同一个block
(那时check in拿锁匙的时候看到跟你同block超激动兴奋的!)
(哎可惜这学期我又搬走了)
虽然说熟,但毕竟之前也没有机会常见面
这个学期因为住得近
比以前更常在一起吃饭和互串门子
也对你个人有更多的了解
除了觉得你很坚强、很有自律
也是个责任心很重、对朋友很好的人~~~
偶尔耍废陪你看一下蜡笔小新
偶尔压力大的时候带着PuPu上来跟你的馒头玩
啊这些日子~~~
互相传播正能量和关怀的朋友
夫复何求?
这个学期我不住你楼下了
自己要好好过哦(好吧你之前也都是这样过的哈哈)
得空还是要一起吃饭聊天哦哦哦~~~

素仪&碧君
不好意思哈哈
Year 1 就黏上你们了~~~
(素仪不好意思让你后悔了 :P )
说真的到上个学期我们两个只剩下一个common module
课表大相径庭,一个礼拜只剩寥寥可数的见面时间
住的block又离很远
虽然说我和你的关系还不到你和高中死党的熟络程度
但是,没能和你的课表一样
真的,很不习惯~~~
这个,或许就是好像那些老夫老妻习惯了身边有个人陪的感觉吧
(不好意思夸大了一点呵呵!)
好吧不愁,这个sem会有3个common mod
总算比较像回以前的日子了哈哈!
碧君~~~
感谢你和素仪是一个配套的
觉得自己有你们两个还真是赚到了哈哈!
从认识你开始就觉得你很强
(部分是因为素仪的描述,但还是觉得可以这样在ID里面熬过了果然是非一般人啊啊啊)
虽说你是被欺负小孩子,但是你要记得
素仪欺负你的时候我是站在你这边的噢噢噢噢
因为有学音乐(和看柯南)的关系
即使我们不同中学也不同科系还算聊得来
谢谢你,在我邀请你去看我的concert的时候都很乐意来捧场
还有我这次check in check out的时候助我一臂之力搬行李
再见多你一阵子你就要飞了
exchange要好好玩,好好学习哦哦哦
等你回来 ^ ^ (记得带手信 :P )
呃。。。欸?
才发觉我们三个好像没什么合照哦~~~ T_T

Salai, Ivan, Yi Heng
hmm....how we started our friendship liao ah???
For Salai is cuz LSM1103 and 1104 we were in same lab group
Ivan and Yi Heng...
Yeah I think it's cuz we stayed back to ask the 1103 micro part lecturer some questions
(and a side note, thank God I think he is the one who inspired my interest in microbio haha)
And Ivan who had an ingenious idea of forming the LSSG WhatsApp group
and whoala we began being lecture buddies
I really thank God (or life, in Yi Heng's perspective since you are a pre-believer) for bringing us together in our uni life
Without you guys, my journey here would be so much duller and lifeless
HAHA I group you three up is for the sake of convenience since we kinda share a common circle
But, you three have always motivated and supported me in different ways
Salai, the forever gentle, patient and helpful one
Always (almost) there for me when I need help in our common modules
I think if it weren't you my 2191 would have been... :/
And of course those reassurance and words of encouragement
Ivan, the resilient one
From our occasional chats and lunch meet ups,
From you I see and have learnt to rely more on God
I remember that you have blessed me with the biochem textbook
which did helped me did a bit better in my 2101 exams
and I extended your blessing to help my juniors by lending it out to them :)
Salai and Ivan, let's just support one another,
not just in terms of academics
but also our lives in Christ :)
Yi Heng, the sometimes dilly dally one
And the special case
the local who grew up in Malaysia and ended up being more like us than a real local HAHAHA
And your humour sometimes uplift my mood when I'm down
Glad to have one friend who can talk about almost everything with me
(I really enjoy our random debates and discussions)
See you guys around at school, think this sem we will not have any common module (except for Salai?)
But just, jio lunch anytime!

怡萱
亲爱的么么哒!
认识你应该就是从CM1401 tutorial 同桌开始吧
然后就一直都在common module碰面
虽然life science的课都算是分道扬镳了
但是幸好有psychology的课还可以一起上 ^ ^
喜欢你就还有一股萌萌哒的气息哈哈
偶尔也会犯小糊涂很可爱的
开学见喽!

理威
学弟好!
呵呵那么有礼貌的孩子实属罕见哈哈
从一开始科学营认识你就觉得你跟一般人不一样
不只是因为你是东马人
(也可能是你是念物理的?哈哈)
到你来了新加坡当我的学弟才知道原来你是基督徒
嗯,感恩,以后可以在修行上和bible study互相学习 ^^
(虽然有时候你那些耍废的评论确实会惹毛我一点点...哼!)