Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn.
-Romans 12:15 (NIV)
I think I am,
or I indeed
(and many have said that)
I am an emotional person
Being an E(S/N)FP person
I readily and easily catches emotions from my surroundings and people
(yes like a cold, and my immunity is super weak)
Hence
When I see miserable things happening on other people
I feel their pain
and will feel down for sometime until I leave the scene or till I attend to other things
Hospital wards are typical examples of places where I feel emotionally drained after going
Especially when I go into those wards where the seniors are hosted
I will feel the pain when I see the IV drip tubes attached to their hands
I will feel their feebleness when they try to move or talk
I will feel the loneliness when I see their families are not there to accompany them
I will feel their pessimism and negative outlooks when I see them sigh
I will feel their sense of guilt and self-worthless for being bedridden when they need others to attend to their basic needs
and
I will feel the fragility and transience of life
Today what happened was I went to visit a fellow church mate's father with other fellow cell group aunties at NUH
(which is just located outside my school)
It's a type C ward,
so you share the space with 7 other patients
and the moment I am in the space
I feel slightly under a pressure
because you see 8 people who are sick
(though not all are in obvious pain, but still)
And usually seniors will be a bit more negative and pessimistic when they had to be sent to hospital
(the old people's mindset that once you are in hospital, it's a major issue and you're doomed)
and I get them like a flu
It's always hard for me to think of being in the position of a healthcare professional
because
if I were to be in this environment
I think every day my energy will just be drained so fast
Hence
when I meet very nice doctors, nurses
I respect them a lot
because
Hell no
every day they are going through such tremendous loads of negativity
but yet they persist
I think I'm glad that I didn't adhere to my mum's wish that I should become a doctor
So that I can keep myself sane
And so that I can offer help and support from other means
